Before writing any further, I want to confess something.
I believe my posts are childish. I don’t want to overthink what is happening around me or tensions between me and my friends. But these are the things that keep me from moving on.
I am not an emotional, obsessive freak (believe me I’m not) but rather a civilised and mature grownup.
I would love if my friends don’t make an issue of every small thing so I could stay happy at college and just focus on assignments and not become a sandwich between my friends and other peers. I want to take my mind off those issues. I want to laugh too. I don’t want to face that increased tension when I get back to my friends after meeting someone else. My brain stops working. It stops being fresh, witty and intellectual and becomes more like rotten, and worried, and… uhh! I don’t know.